An entry I wrote for writer's craft. I figured I needed a new journal, so why not eh? :]

. I write a lot of poetry. Sometimes I look back at it and I just haven't a clue what I was trying to get at. Sometimes right after I write it, I'm not sure what it means but I leave it anyways, just to read it later and find myself completely understanding what I was trying to get at. It's like leaving a bit of your soul in a little time capsule; something to reflect on later in life. At the time, you can't predict how you’re going to see it in the future. That's why it's important to write as much as you can of it now so you can enjoy all of it later on.

. I sit and think of all the reasons why I write poetry. My friends say I'm really good at it, that I could do it professionally. I don't think I'd ever want to. It's not really a hard thing to do, what happens is I get a line in my head and I make a whole stanza out of it, then a whole poem develops. It only takes five or ten minutes, so I figure I might as well write the stuff down if something good comes from it. In times of emotion I write to cope; people ask me why everything I write is so sad when I'm such a happy person. I say, well maybe I'm such a happy person because I have somewhere to put all the misery. I wish people would read what I write and not relate it directly to me, just take notice whatever emotion is being displayed, maybe even relate it to themselves if it helps. That way I wouldn't have to worry about how people will look at it later on, because they’re not reading something I wrote, they're reading something a suffering person wrote. I don't want to be seen as that suffering person, because I'm really not. And I think I'm not that person because I'm able to release it with these words.

. That being said, I guess it seems like I write to not only mold a poem, but to mold myself. And I don't think I ever would have come to that conclusion if I didn't write this here journal entry. Poetry does a lot for me. Writing does a lot for me. I should do it not because I'm good at it (if I'm even that), but because it helps me discover more about myself and the relationships between syllables, sounds and words. I find it all fascinating.

I suppose should do it, I do do it, because I benefit from it (no matter how indirectly I notice the benefits).